Song: Florence + the Machine - Bird Song [Lyric Video] HQ
Right… right… okay so Brinescar is… just gonna not go there again, I don’t think I’m really… welcomed there any more…..
“Fuck that hurts… fuck everything hurts right now…. I….phew who knew getting the…. Air kicked outta you…. Oww owww”
As I said this I put a hand up to my face, pulling it back to just see red covering it… okay so the cut hit… right…. Oh I can just… you know… shift over it right… I need….
I paused, looking around… I need an Inn… and…. To rest…
Where even am I? I’m… west of Brinescar?
Right so camp now… we’ll fix the scar thing once we find the closest city…. I think… yeah that’s a plan?… Gah why did it have to be a beach, they’re just… sand sucksssss.
Okay camp… sleep…
I could barely set up my tent, everything hurt… my stomach was screaming, I probably broke a rib right?… what does a broken bone even feel like?
I just… sleep… the tent is… okay? I just want….
I flopped down on my sleeping bag inside my tent, and instantly regretted it
“Ahhhhh fuck fuck… why did…. That ow….”
I wrapped my arm over my chest, trying not to cry from the pain… come on your the cool… fuck…. Cool witch yeah who…
This is nothing right you should….
I couldn’t talk myself out of it, tears slightly rolled down my face as I tried to stifle it… so I just laid there… crying from the pain, from ruining the one chance I had to actually make a cool friend… but they just… you know couldn’t handle Ash that’s…
They liked me just not… not Ash right… that’s okay… it wasn’t… wasn’t me.
From there I can’t really tell you what happened. I was so exhausted that I just, don’t remember when I fell asleep. For some obvious reasons, I woke up very late… groaning as I sat up
This wasn’t the first time I had… been hurt like this, but damn Zita packed a stronger punch than anyone else from my childhood.
I moved slowly, forcing myself to get up and not just lay on the tent floor… I really wanted to just lay on the tent floor.
I packed up my tent, washed the blood off of my face from the cut… and just started walking down the road.
I just hoped I didn’t have to talk to anyone, or do anything, I just… need an actual bed… a mirror to fix this scar… and sleep… food… fuck the sand gosh it’s just found its way into my boots and that’s so utterly annoying.
As I kept walking, and walking, and walking… right as I was about to give up for the day I saw a smaller town on the horizon.
Right good… please just tell me they have an inn… please please…
Right… as I walked in I past the tavern… nope, nope… not another tavern… gosh not right now… not until I can actually… be cool again.
I thought just walking through the town lost. I got a few strange glances, not abnormal for Ash… but this time it was also more empathetic than normal, people saw the…. Bruises, cuts, and just how tired I looked and took pity on me
Nahhhh screw them I dont… ahhh ouch okay you know what… maybe pity is good right I…
I stopped one of them… please don’t walk away… don’t walk away.
I went to say something, wincing for a moment before I got the words out.
“Wheres the… closest Inn? You know just need to… take a quick nap”
I said laughing, then groaning… ouch why did I laugh that hurts.
The person looked a bit concerned
“Are you… okay dear?”
She said
I smirked a bit before saying
“If you think this…. This is bad you should see… see the other guy”
I said stifling a laugh this time.
They looked at me again, concerned still but seeing I wasn’t going to budge in my stubbornness before they pointed north
“It’s the building right up there, Hamil’s… tell them Inla Amme sent you and they should be able to find you a room. Look dear, if you need anything you can find me at Azurea’s Hearth okay? Just… take care of yourself”
I squinted a bit… why is this person being so nice… that’s… fuck it I’m too tired to try and be smart and deductive here… or ever
“Thanks…”
I said turning towards where she pointed and walking that direction.
Once I got to Hamil’s, I got a room and the moment that I entered the room and shut the door I let out a muffled scream just saying
“Ahhhhhh fuck everything hurts still!!!”
Right that was… you know what we’re fine okay… I just…
I walked over to the bed, gently laying down on it before just passing out… I’ll worry about everything else tomorrow. Just… sleep.
Song Change: Emma Blackery - Icarus (Official Lyric Video)
As I woke up… I smelled food, and my stomach… for reasons other than just being in pain, grumbled. Right right food… then fix the scar and… just…
I opened the door, almost walked into the tray of food that was at the foot of it.
“Who?”
“Did…”
You know what… i’m too tired to turn away free food…
I slowly crouched down, picking up the tray and taking it back into the room. Setting it down before just digging in.
Ewww fish…
Nope nope… its fine… I’m hungry enough to
Gosh why do people like fish this stuff is disgusting.
After finishing my meal rather quickly I stood up, walking over to the mirror and sighing. Well those are some… lovely bags, and bruises… and
I ran my hand gently over the scar on my face… lets get rid of this… terrible reminder of that place and those people and… just being scared and… shhhh hush me
I paused, thinking about how I normally shift into my form… and then just… did it, I don’t know how to describe shifting okay so shut up!
As I did, I watched the scar and bruises shift away. I smiled a bit
Ouch fuck why does
I put my hand up to my face, I could still feel the scar? But… its
As I looked back up… I noticed… fuck its still there…
But it was gone… okay lets just try… again to….
And just like before, it disappeared before quickly reappearing.
“No no no no… it cant… no come on… nooooo”
I cried, come on I just need
I focused harder, tried to remove the scar… hide it… just…
“No why is this not working!!!”
I said throwing the cloth I was holding, to remove the bleeding, across the room… before I just slide down the wall into the fetal position…
Why did that seem to only set the scar worse… fuck it hurts so much… why did… it should’ve been removed!!! I have to be able to hide… remove it… just… get it off my face!!!
Please for the love of all the gods just…
I tried to cover it again, tried to remove it…
My face burned, my stomach ached, and right now I just… wanted it to go away…
I don’t want to look… at this… every time… Gahhhhh!!!
Well… i’m stuck with it… this hideous scar… a constant reminder of brinescar… ha fuck even the name is a pun with that… why…
I just sat in the room like this, laying down on the floor not even wanting to get up from the bed and just… thought. Right… just need to… heal up… maybe that’s the issue… just…
So
Tired..
Everything hurts…
Right just… don’t stick around once that…
That spell wears off… that was… the actual issue there of course… no… no other way to have avoided that clearly.